¡¡¡¡¡¸Dad! I am almost there! After another five
or six steps, I will enter the great door
of the World Health Organization.¡¹
¡¡¡¡Filled with excitement, Wassil Nowicky,
while climbing upstairs, muttered to himself
as if talking to his father.
¡¡¡¡¡¸Dad! I believe you will be proud of me.
The next hour, I will deliver a speech on
my research paper in this supreme palace of
the medical circle.¡¹
¡¡¡¡What would make Wassil Nowicky much happier
than this? Nothing! For all these ten years'
assiduous study in the laboratary, his dearest
wish was to be able to lecture on his own
research results at the ¡ºWorld Cancer Conference¡»of
the ¡ºWorld Health Organization¡». And finally
today, his wish would come true.
¡¡¡¡Early before six months, he had already
started counting down the days. He himself
also found that he had changed a little bit.
In the past, he could always wait for the
cancer cells to change in the test tubes with
great patience. It is fair to say that all
those years he had been used to failing in
his experiments time after time. And right
after disappointment, he would start thinking
of a new scheme all over again. However, this
time is quite another case. He couldn't keep
calm any more and counted down to the big
day expectantly. After all, it was the first
time that he confidently submitted his research
paper to the conference.
¡¡¡¡Located in Geneva, Swiss, the head office
of the ¡ºWorld Health Organization¡»that faces
south rises high towards the sky. The only
thing that Wassil Nowicky needed to do then
was to take another step with his right foot,
and then he would reach the highest level
of the stairs. At that moment, the little
bird that circled behind him all along took
its step beforehand and perched on the terrace
outside the door of the¡ºWorld Health Organization¡».
Its little feet were exerting all their strength
scratching the mottled floor that had the
wounds and stains of time, and its two round
eyes were staring at Wassil Nowicky who had
just reached the terrace. The floor did bore
a mark made by the little bird. A trace of
a bright new life was printed into innumerable
life scientists in nearly hundreds of years,
who burned all their lives and perseveringly
delved into the medical breakthrough to make
human life longer and healthier.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky almost eagerly trotted to
the check-in desk of the ¡ºWorld Cancer Conference¡»,
and received a¡ºconference order manual¡». Turning
to the first page, he found that the ¡ºopening
speech of the conference¡»was not his, neither
did his paper belong to the first ten subjects.
He was a little disappointed, but he tried
to comfort himself, ¡ºIt is the first time
after all! It is the first time that I submitted
my paper to the conference. Besides, the speakers
at the top of the list are all renowned seniors.¡»However,
he still couldn't find the topic of his paper
in the second and the third pages of the ¡ºconference
order manual¡».
¡¡¡¡¡ºHow could it be? It is impossible!¡»Wassil
Nowicky said to himself, ¡ºI must have missed
something!¡»
¡¡¡¡He turned the manual back to the first page.
This time, he breathed out deeply first and
blamed himself in his mind,
¡¡¡¡¡ºIt is such an important conference and
might also be an important milestone in my
life. How could I be so impetuous! The conference
order was closely scheduled and the time disposed
to each speaker are fixed already. I must
have to look at it carely, so that I won't
miss the time period that the conference arranged
for me.¡»Wassil Nowicky was thinking like this.
¡¡¡¡On the left side above the great hall of
the¡ºWorld Health Organization¡», there was
a typical ancient European-style arched window.
Looking through the arched window, people
would find that the sky was so small.---
¡¡¡¡It was at his prime time.
¡¡¡¡Days and nights, he couldn't see the sky.
¡¡¡¡The tightly closed laboratary was his whole
world.
¡¡¡¡The change of cell lines in the test tubes
affected all the feelings in his heart.
¡¡¡¡He became indifferent to no matter how obstinate
cancer cell lines were.
¡¡¡¡The confidence he owned was much more stalwart.
¡¡¡¡Only with a clear goal can the power of
confidence be shown.
¡¡¡¡He thought in the past that ¡ºI won't lose
to anybody¡»was his goal in life.
¡¡¡¡Sometimes though he would feel lost--¡ºwhat
should I do now?¡»
¡¡¡¡What's a clear goal? He didn't have any.
¡¡¡¡But since that day, ¡
¡¡¡¡In the dim light, Valojia Nowicky, Wassil
Nowicky's father, was sitting alone at the
side of a sickbed in the hospital.
¡¡¡¡¡ºZ¡Z¡z¡¡»Wassil Nowicky opened the door.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky saw Valojia Nowicky the
first sight. ¡ºDad! Why don't you lie in
the bed and have a rest?¡»
¡¡¡¡Valojia Nowicky lifted his eyebrows slowly
and cast a glance to him. His haggard and
deep-set eyes seemed to be glistening.
¡¡¡¡¡ºWassil! You are coming!¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºWell, why is your hair all wet?¡»
¡¡¡¡As an engineer of a factory, Valojia Nowicky
had always had a strong shape, but several
months before, he was diagnosed definitely
to have got cancer. He had just finished
a course of chemotherapy last week, but
his illness showed no sign of improvement
and he even had difficulty in speaking after
that.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! I ran to here. The teacher kept
me at school again this afternoon, talking
about the science test in Moscow that the
school wanted to send me to next month.
But you know, I am eager to come to the
hospital and accompany you.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºMy son! You shall not do like that again.
It's ok that you can't accompany me. Listen
carefully to the teacher's instructions
is what you should do.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºI see!¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky slowly and lightly assisted
his shriveled father to his feet. He didn't
want his father speak too much and exhaust
his strength.
¡¡¡¡He helped him go lying in the bed and
covered him with the quilt.
¡¡¡¡¡ºZ¡Z¡z¡¡»the door was opened once again.
¡¡¡¡Before noticing who that was, they had
already heard the voice behind the door.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! I'll sing a song for you!¡»
¡¡¡¡It was Wassil Nowicky's sister, Olga Nowicky.
¡¡¡¡Seeing his daughter, Valojia Nowicky's
eyes glistened even greater.¡ºGreat! I'll
listen.¡»
¡¡¡¡Olga Nowicky came to the bed as she dragged
Wassil Nowicky with her hands to her side.
¡ºBrother! Sing with me.¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky appeared to be reluctant.
¡¡¡¡¡ºEh¡Eh... I don't know how to sing¡¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºStupid!¡»
¡¡¡¡Olga Nowicky drew a piece of paper out
of the pocket in front of her chest. She
unfolded it and gave it to Wassil Nowicky.
¡¡¡¡¡ºI'll sing and you hum the tune. Is that
ok?¡»
¡¡¡¡¡º¡I'll try¡¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky held the lyric with both
hands. The graceful and restrained singing
of his younger sister had already begun:
¡¡¡¡When I was young
¡¡¡¡Your heart told me to live healthily
¡¡¡¡When I was sick
¡¡¡¡You said I was a good boy to be obedient
¡¡¡¡When I grew up
¡¡¡¡You told me to be a strong flower
¡¡¡¡When you are sick
¡¡¡¡I will hold tight your hand
¡¡¡¡When you are cold
¡¡¡¡I will wear a scarf around your neck
¡¡¡¡When you have no sickness
¡¡¡¡I will, together with you, guard ourselves
with resolution
¡¡¡¡A brilliant radiance shined on Valojia
Nowicky's face. When his daughter put her
hands into his palm together with the beautiful
song, he used all his strength to hold the
little hands sympathetically. All these
days, he had been thinking about a problem
with great fear-
¡¡¡¡¡ºFor how many days to come can I hold
these lovely hands?¡»Every time he thought
about this, tears would be nearly brought
to his eyes.
¡¡¡¡¡ºI can't cry. I can't cry in front of
my son and daughter. My daughter have just
told me in her singing that she would become
a strong flower.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºMy good daughter! I'll look at you¡wherever
I am, I will pray for you. You will, you
will become a strong flower in all weathers.¡»
¡¡¡¡When Olga Nowicky, following the song,
took off her scarf and wore it on Valojia
Nowicky's neck, he was trembling and his
heart was splitting. He had no feeling of
cold any more. Closing his eyes slowly and
forcing his tears back, he moved his head,
allowing the fluff of scarf rubbing against
his cheeks. A ghost of warmth came deep
into his heart and he enjoyed the moment
waywardly. Only when Death knocked at his
door did he cherished deeply the perfection
of the precious moments.
He was satisfied and had nothing left to
wish for.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad was asleep!¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky whispered in Olga Nowicky's
ear.
¡¡¡¡The daylight penetrated
into the sickroom through the window, lightening
the world with boundless affection.
¡¡¡¡Again, the penetrating throe, Valojia
Nowicky was waked up by a fitful pain. The
abhorrent cancer cell was again proliferating
wildly in his body.
¡¡¡¡This time, he had the feeling that he
couldn't stand any longer and he felt faint.
¡¡¡¡He tried hard to lie in the bed with one
side of his body, so that his hands stretching
from the quilt could stroke the faces of
Wassil Nowicky and Olga Nowicky who were
leaning on the bedside asleep.
¡¡¡¡He wanted to wake them up to say his last
few words, but then he thought, ¡ºno! Don't
let them know that I am about to go. Then,
they would believe for ever that I would
always be at their sides taking care of
them.¡»
¡¡¡¡So Valojia Nowicky, standing the great
pain, looked at Wassil Nowicky and Olga
Nowicky sympathetically. Tne second after
another had passed and there were several
times that a fit of dizziness came over
him. He realized that he had gone beyond
his ability.
¡¡¡¡¡ºwhat should I do?--¡»
¡¡¡¡¡º--If I left, who would take care of them?¡»
¡¡¡¡He got the answer.
¡¡¡¡He put his arms in front of his chest
and held the cross there. He touched the
cross devoutly in every detail with his
forefinger, removing any existing dust on
the cross.
¡¡¡¡He bent his head praying:
¡¡¡¡¡ºGod! I left Wassil Nowicky and Olga Nowicky
to you. God bless them that they will not
worry about food and clothes, that in bad
weathers they will have a shelter to keep
themselves from wind and cold. Please favor
them with courage and wisdom to meet the
challenge of future¡God bless them¡¡»
¡¡¡¡He worshiped while dropping a nod every
time. Gradually¡his soul was sublimed and
his mind was quiet and gratified. He had
had all his unfulfilled wishes put to God's
trust.
¡¡¡¡That was the last time he dropped a nod.
His face turned to right and lay on the
pillow, one minute¡ two minutes¡ and didn't
lift up any longer.
¡¡¡¡Outside the window,
the pattering rain was falling continuously.
That was the accumulated tears of helpless
human lives in thousands of years.
¡¡¡¡Early in the morning,
there were thick mists.
¡¡¡¡¡ºBrother! Brother! Wake up!¡»Olga Nowicky
shook Wassil Nowicky violently.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky heard her, but he really
wanted to sleep a little longer.
¡¡¡¡¡ºwooo¡¡»Seeing that Wassil Nowicky still
leaned at the bedside, she cried out.
¡¡¡¡¡ºMy little sister! Five more seconds,
then I'll get up. Please don't cry now.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºwoo¡woo¡¡»Olga Nowicky rather burst out
into a flood of tears. He said to Wassil
Nowicky sobbing:
¡¡¡¡¡ºBrother! Wooo¡dad¡dad's dead.¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky jumped to his feet in a
sudden.
¡¡¡¡¡ºWhat did you say?¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºWooo¡Look at dad¡I couldn't wake him
up.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! Dad!¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky leaned over and held his
father's shoulders. His face had turned
into a whiter shade of pale and his eyes
were closed serenely.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! Wake up! I am Wassil! Dad! Please
wake up¡¡»
¡¡¡¡He dared not cry out louder. He feared
that his father would be frightened after
he woke up a moment later.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! The day breaks! Please wake up¡¡»
¡¡¡¡He dared not shake him too violently.
He feared that his father would be frightened
after he woke up a moment later.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! You are tired, right? I'll make
you lay down, all right?¡»
¡¡¡¡But-but, Valojia Nowicky didn't say a
single word to him.
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad! Please--¡»Wassil Nowicky, with great
anxiety, almost burst into tears. He held
his father in his arms and his cheek touched
that of his father's. For the first time,
he had the feeling of horrible fears, the
feeling of helplessness. His voice was trembling:
¡º¡It's real¡the day's broken¡I ¡was lying
to you¡¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºWooo¡Brother¡wooo¡is he dead? ¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºbrother! What should we do? Wooo...please
save him¡wooo¡¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky was in a state of utter
stupefaction. He had never thought of facing
this kind of situation. In his arms, his
father collapsed.
¡¡¡¡¡ºYes! I'll save dad!¡»he must hurry--¡ºbut
what can I do!¡»tears filled Wassil Nowicky's
eyes--¡ºBrain! Brain! Think quick!¡»
¡¡¡¡He held his father in his arms. It was
that moment that he found Father was so
light. In the past, it was always his father
who carried him on his back. In his memory,
his father was strong and great. But now
it was such an easy thing to carry his father
in his arms. He recollected that these days
Father always left what's delicious to them
while saying--¡ºI have no appetite¡». The
truth was that father hadn't eaten anything.
That's why he was so light. A feeling of
sadness broke his heart and tears trickled
down from his cheeks.
¡¡¡¡¡ºOlga! Stay here to take care of dad.
I'll go find the doctor.¡»
¡¡¡¡Before he finished his words, Wassil Nowicky
had already rushed out of the room.
¡¡¡¡There were only sparsely a few people
going up and down in the corridor. Wassil
Nowicky rushed to the medical station. He
cried in his heart-
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad-you can't die!¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºDad-you've promised me-you've promised
to accompany me to Moscow watching my science
test.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºYou must come to life¡You will¡I'll be
obedient to you¡I'll read to you¡I'll become
a scientist that you'll be proud of¡¡»
¡¡¡¡Open the canopy
of the sky, light of the early morning sun,
¡¡¡¡Thou hast traveled across the oceans,
far from thy son.
¡¡¡¡Away with thee the affection and care,
¡¡¡¡Away with thee thy beloved child.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky ran to the counter of the
medical station. Nobody was there.
¡¡¡¡He stood on tiptoe and leaned over the
counter, ringing the bell at the table of
the nurses¡one minute, two minutes¡five
minutes. He became quite frantic since no
nurse was coming out.
¡¡¡¡He couldn't wait--¡ºDad couldn't wait¡»,
he remembered another medical station on
the other floor.
¡¡¡¡He ran away¡
¡¡¡¡The nurse station on this floor had nobody
either. This time he gripped the ring bell
and never let it go¡
¡¡¡¡¡ºDoctor! I beg you coming out soon!¡»
¡¡¡¡The door was open. Wassil Nowicky's heart
nearly throbbed out. A young female doctor
holding the doorframe and keeping a straight
face, said:
¡¡¡¡¡ºHey! The ring bell was not rang like
that¡¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky jumped with anxiety and
said pleadingly:
¡¡¡¡¡ºMy father was sick very badly. I beg
you go and save him right now, please! All
right?¡»
¡¡¡¡The doctor said immediately,¡ºI know you.
You are Valojia Nowicky's son, right?¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky nodded his head hastily.¡ºQuick!
Quick! Doctor! Quick!¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºI am going to take the medical instruments
and will go right with you.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºThank you! Doctor! Thank you!¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky was almost burning, but
his heart was much relieved then.
¡¡¡¡He ran while turning back constantly,
urging the doctor to hurry.
¡¡¡¡He believed that doctor was almighty and
was also the greatest people. Father wouldn't
die as long as the doctor gave an injection
to him.
¡¡¡¡He just prayed--¡ºDad! You must wait until
I came back.¡»
¡¡¡¡The doctor hurried behind the scurrying
Wassil Nowicky and entered the room.
¡¡¡¡The doctor opened Valojia Nowicky's eyes,
felt his pulse and then auscultated his
heart¡Wassil Nowicky and Olga Nowicky bated
their breath and dared not to make any sound.
There was also a nurse assisting the doctor.
¡¡¡¡With a blank, expressionless face, the
doctor took off the stethoscope, pulled
the white sheet and covered it onto the
face of Valojia Nowicky.
¡¡¡¡She was intended to get out of the sickroom
silently.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky's mind went round and round.
Suddenly, like a collapsed bank, he shouted:
¡¡¡¡¡ºNo! You can't leave! Come back! What
about my father?¡»
¡¡¡¡The doctor, almost approaching the door,
stopped and turned back slowly. She looked
at Wassil Nowicky. With her tightly closed
mouth and dignified face, she seemed exactly
like a judge of life and death. She looked
at Wassil for just a few seconds, saying
nothing, then, she turned back again coolly,
opened the door and came out still.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky went crazy. ¡ºDon't go!...You
must tell me why?...¡»He bit the wall with
his fists sometimes, or straightened the
hairs of his father gently the other times.
¡ºwhy! ¡why it is like this¡¡». He was plunged
into a hysterical condition, sometimes wailing,
sometimes shouting...
¡¡¡¡¡ºWooo¡Brother!...wooo-why did the doctor
put the white sheet on Father's face¡wooo¡¡»Olga
Nowicky cried while she pulled and twisted
the back of Wassil Nowicky's clothes.
¡¡¡¡¡ºZ¡Z¡z¡¡»the door of the sick room was
opened.
¡¡¡¡The doctor entered, with the same indifferent
expression. She walked towards the back
of Wassil Nowicky, lift up ¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky's
fists that were beating the wall and led
him to sit down in the wooden chair. She
herself also put a wooden chair opposite
him and sat down.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky was sobbing whiled she
looked and waited with a set expression.
She knew that after a while, ¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky
would calm down. She had had a lot of experiences
dealing with such sad scenes. During her
first year in hospital as a resident doctor,
she was not so hard-hearted. Rather, she
was very disappointed watching her patients
fading away. At that time, she also forced
herself not to appear to be sad when comforting
the families of her patients. She expected
every time that she could help the patients
getting rid of cancer cells and saving their
lives. ¡¡¡¡However, there were more times
of disappointment than those of pride. Seven
years before, when she was still a student
in a medical school, she chose oncology
that were supposed to be the most difficult
subject as her major with great pride. She
even shouted out loud like a boy student:
¡ºI can conquer cancer cell¡». Seven years
later, that is, today, she -Cofija Kalelina
bore a grudge about cancer cells.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky was still sobbing:
¡¡¡¡¡ºwhy?¡»
¡¡¡¡Cofija Kalelina pondered and was going
to say:
¡¡¡¡¡ºSorry! I've done all I could.¡»
¡¡¡¡However, she hated herself for saying
that. Every time when she faced her patients'
families and said this, her heart would
be hurt. It was like surrender to cancer
cells.
¡¡¡¡But, other than this, what should she
say?
¡¡¡¡¡ºYour name's Wassil?¡», asked Cofija Kalelina.
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky nodded.
¡¡¡¡¡ºWassil! What you asked was a big question.
The cancer your father suffered from was
one of the toughest diseases that the medical
circle faces. If I am supposed to answer
your question, it would take a long time.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºDoctor! You gave my father pills when
he's sick, then he would be cured, right?¡»
¡¡¡¡The question Wassil Nowicky raised was
just the matter that Cofija Kalelina was
disappointed with.
¡¡¡¡She answered, ¡ºwe did give him pills.¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky questioned closely, ¡ºthen
why did Father die?¡»
¡¡¡¡Cofija Kalelina heaved a profound sigh,
and a spout a word from her lips:
¡¡¡¡¡ºAbhorrent cancer cell!...it's too horrible.¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºWassil£¬I'll tell you in the simplest
way.¡» the question of Wassil Nowicky stirred
up Cofija Kalelina's hatred towards cancer
cells in seven years' clinical experience.
The one she used to be always wished to
save the lives of patients from the border
of death, but the tricky cancer cells beat
her one time after another. Her ¨¦lan was
exhausted, except that the simple belief
supported and encouraged her to fight against
cancer cell. She almost forgot that Wassil
Nowicky might not understand what she said:
¡¡¡¡¡ºWassil£¡At first, we identified a tumor
in your father's body. We adopted the most
common therapy, that is, cutting off the
tumor through surgical treatment. What we
didn't expect, but what often happens was
that the cancer cells had invaded into other
parts of the body through the new blood
vessel born by the tumor. As to where it
had invaded into, we couldn't find it with
our instruments.¡»
¡¡¡¡Cofija Kalelina noticed that Wassil Nowicky
stopped sobbing any more. Instead, he was
listening intently. So she continued:
¡¡¡¡¡ºAfter that, therefore, we used chemicals,
which were used to kill the proliferating
cancer cells. But at the same time, they
also killed normal cells, even faster than
the speed of killing cancer cells. But what
if we didn't use chemicals? There were no
other ways to cut off the proliferation
of cancer cells. We can compare the life
of your father as a race against time. Chemotherapy
is the last resort, which caused the speeding
decline of your father's body. So¡¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºCancer cells killed my father.¡»
¡¡¡¡Wassil Nowicky interrupted. The daylight
broke through the trees outside the window
and shined on Wassil ¡¡¡¡Nowicky's fair face.
The light was refracted and a stream of
cold light flashed across his right face
from his right pupil.
¡¡¡¡¡ºCan anyone kill cancer cells£¿¡»Wassil
Nowicky asked.
¡¡¡¡¡ºI don't believe it£¡¡»the clangorous question
of Wassil Nowicky rekindled Cofija Kalelina's
faith suddenly.
¡¡¡¡¡ºWhat should I do£¿¡»his eyes were glaring.
¡¡¡¡¡º¡I don't know yet£¡But I have collected
many materials.¡»Cofija Kalelina answered.
¡¡¡¡¡ºCan I have a look£¿¡»his mind was pondering
at a high speed.
¡¡¡¡¡ºSure£¡¡¡but you are still¡¡OK£¡Come to
me later¡»said Cofija Kalelina
¡¡¡¡¡ºWhat's cancer cell?¡»he couldn't be more
sure.
¡¡¡¡Cofija Kalelina said£º
¡¡¡¡¡ºIt's a big question! How about this?
Wassil£¡Your father still has a lot of things
to deal with. We should let him go away
quietly, and then I'll tell you in detail.
Ok?¡»
¡¡¡¡¡ºOk£¡¡»
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